Lazy

wow, i've got to be the world's laziest blogger. i guess we've just been so busy that every time i try to sit down to write i get distracted (those with preschool aged kids can totally relate!). the last 2 weeks have flown by really. trying to keep things as normal as possible for boog during the never ending doctor's appointments which is not an easy task. my blood pressure has sky rocketed recently and it doesn't look like ava darling will be with us much longer. my body no longer wishes to cooperate and continuing the pregnancy is becoming very risky to my health. i'm not entirely ready to say goodbye, but i do have another child that i very well can't leave without a mother. tough decisions are ahead, but i'm so very thankful my husband's command is allowing him to stay home as long as we need so that we can be together during the difficult days ahead. god's blessings through this have been so very evident. i've met some pretty amazing people who've managed to befriend me during my darkest days and not complain about my gloominess (i swear i'm not usually a down and out kind of person), my husband's co's and their wives have shown us compassion and support beyond our wildest dreams, our families have wrapped their arms around us and complete strangers have reached out. i'm truly amazed at how god has used people to show us his love and plan in all of this. lesson learned the past 2 weeks: it's okay to ask and receive help when you need it! for those of you who know me well, i never ask for help with anything so this is definitely new territory :)